I conquered a fear on Sunday.
Ever since I was little, people have told me that I have a great voice. I’ve been in many different choirs, ensembles, worship teams, musicals, etc… and loved every minute of it. My sisters and I are CONSTANTLY singing at home, in the car, at the store, in front of our family and sometimes, we drive our parents crazy because we really never shut up. (I know what you’re thinking…”hmm, she NEVER talks at church…”…but seriously, get to know me & you’ll realize that I am NOT a quiet person :] )
Every year since I was in 6th grade, my dad has asked me & my sisters to sing for him for his Christmas present or for his birthday. But every year, my sisters and I made up our own selfish reasons why we couldnt sing for him. This year, we made the decision to surprise him and sing in church. BUT, we couldn’t bring ourselves to sing at FBC Belton. WHY? We don’t know why. The only other place that we could think of to sing was at FBC Center in Center, Texas…the place where I grew up. My dad was the youth minister in that church for 12 years, so he knows most everybody in the church. Surprise, surprise. With all the connections that he had, I knew that somebody could get us in to sing. We finally found an opening and decided to fill it. Last Sunday, my sisters and I sang in church. My dad had no idea and he was completely surprised. His eyes filled with tears when they announced that we would be singing and by the end of our song, tears were flowing down his cheeks. This touched my heart in a way that I cannot explain. I keep wondering why I’ve been so selfish all these years. If I had known the reaction that my dad would have had, I would’ve already sang for him several times. I realized that I was just scared of what other people would think & I thought that people would judge me because of my voice. Now I know that it doesn’t matter what people think. Why couldn’t I have realized that years ago? Now if only I could conquer my fear of singing at FBC Belton… we’ll see.
