January 2010
January 31, 2010
“Bette Davis Montage” by John Powell (P.S. I Love You Score)
“Better” by Matthew Mayfield
“Coal War” by Joshua James
“Details In The Fabric” by Jason Mraz ft. James Morrison
“Everything’ll Be Alright (Live)” by Joshua Radin
“From Where You Are” by Lifehouse
“How Will He Find Me” by The Weepies
“I Won’t” by Colbie Caillat
“I’ll Go Crazy If I Don’t Go Crazy Tonight” by U2
“If You Want To Sing Out, Sing Out” by Cat Stevens
“In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3” by Vitamin String Quartet
“In Love With A Girl (Live)” by Gavin DeGraw
“Make You Feel My Love (Live)” by Adele
“Never Gonna Be” by Bethany Joy Galeotti (Haley James Scott)
“Paper Bag” by Fiona Apple
“Paperweight” by Joshua Radin & Schuyler Fisk
“Precious Love” by James Morrison
“Quicksand” by Everly
“Save Your Best” by Steve Reynolds
“Set The Fire To The Third Bar” by Snow Patrol ft. Martha Wainwright
“Someone To Love You” by Matt Morris
“Something Beautiful” by Needtobreathe
“Stop & Stare (Live)” by OneRepublic
“Two Is Better Than One” by Boys Like Girls
“Vanilla Twilight” by Owl City
“We Belong” by Everly
“When I See You Smile” by Bad English
“When You Find Me” by Joshua Radin
“Where The Streets Have No Name” by U2
“With A Little Help From My Friends” by Joe Anderson & Jim Sturgess
Just so you know…
January 24, 2010
some call me CLAIRE BEAR;
others call me LAUREN or LC;
My priorities in life are GOD, FAMILY, & FRIENDS;
If you have a problem with that
[or anything else about me or my life], then please don’t let the door hit you in the butt on your way out;
I have strawberry blonde hair and blue eyes;
Music is a HUGE part of my life…i love it all.
I am one of the most random and spontaneous people you will ever meet;
I firmly believe that is the only way to live life.
I strongly dislike people who crave attention 100% of the time;
I’ve finally come to terms with the simple fact that some people NEVER grow up;
I enjoy being around those who aren’t fake;
I’m not a big fan of back stabbing;
I love to argue and don’t enjoy being wrong, but I have learned how to accept it;
I get very irritated with people who feel the need to criticize my movie, music, etc… choices.
I’ll like what I want, you like what you want.
Heaven forbid we should have different tastes….
I have a certain way of doing things & if you don’t like it, tough.
I am not fond of smoke;
I think the party scene is extremely unattractive;
Drinking is trashy, as are slutty girls & cussing.
I have no respect for hypocrites & liars,
and I don’t them the time of day.
Also, save the drama for your momma.
I don’t put up with it.
Don’t ask for my opinion if you do not want the honest truth;
Yes, I AM the preacher’s daughter
&& NO, I am NOT perfect.
GET OVER IT.
I don’t like cocky people [BE HUMBLE];
I love to laugh, and I find things funny at inappropriate times.
I love Minute Maid apple juice boxes,
Starbucks green tea, & trail mix.
The smell of peanut butter makes me gag; as does the smell of ketchup and cardboard;
People who put themselves down in order to receive compliments annoy me;
I hate when people type and use abbreviations such as u, r, ur, etc;
and when people put countless exclamation points at the end of every sentence;
My goal is to live in Italy or Greece sometime before I die
&& to adopt a child from a third-world country.
I’m easily entertained;
and very easily distracted;
I enjoy being around my friends; they are absolutely amazing and without them, I don’t know where I would be;
I am learning every day how important it is to be independent;
I’m also learning how to trust
&& when to withdraw that trust.
I’m shy around people I don’t know very well,
but do enjoy meeting new people;
I don’t understand why girls wear clothes that are too small for them
or show entirely too much skin.
Choose NOT to be a slut & wear clothes that actually fit & cover you.
I can assure you…nobody wants to see that.
On the same note, I don’t understand why guys wear their pants at their knees.
It makes me automatically assume that you’re a deadbeat
whether that be the case or not.
I get annoyed by people who do things to look cool;
I have zero-tolerance for stupid people as well as for disrespect.
While I’m touching on the subject of disrespect:
Ladies, if a guy treats you like dirt, chances are
he’s not going to change, no matter how much you think he can.
Kick the guy to the curb & find somebody who is worth your time.
*jumping off my soapbox now*
I usually have a witty, sarcastic comment to things people say;
I don’t know how to deal with people who can’t handle sarcasm.
Starbucks puts me in a great mood;
I enjoy surprises and blessings;
I am addicted to C.O. Bigelow.
Target is my happy place;
Driving is therapeutic;
I love driving for no real reason
&& not knowing where I’m going;
I envy those who live on the beach in those tacky-cute beach houses;
I love walking on the beach in the early morning;
I’m obsessed with “man smells” –
Polo Blue by Ralph Lauren is my favorite;
I’m a sucker for anything acoustic.
<3<3<3<3<3
Monthly Music Lists: October 09-December 09
January 8, 2010
October 2009
“I Gotta Feeling” by Black Eyed Peas
“Awake” by Josh Groban
“Beloved” by Tenth Avenue North
“Lord of All” by Kristian Stanfill
“Burn Us Up” by Shane & Shane
“Fallin For You” by Colbie Caillat
“Beautiful Day” by U2
“Man In The Mirror” by Michael Jackson
“O How He Loves Us” by David Crowder Band
“Any Want You Want It” by Journey
“Vision of You” by Shane & Shane
“Beauty Will Rise” by Steven Curtis Chpaman
“Hold My Heart” by Tenth Avenue North
“Glory To God Forever” by Fee
“Beautiful Ending” by BarlowGirl
“Fireflies” by Owl City
“We Weren’t Born To Follow” by Bon Jovi
“Beautiful Bride” by Flyleaf
“Whatcha Say” by Jason Derulo
“Just Breathe” by Pearl Jam
“What Is This Feeling” by Idina Menzel & Kristin Chenoweth
“August’s Rhapsody in C Major” by Mark Mancina
“Son’s Gonna Rise” by Citizen Cope
“Wait & See” by Brandon Heath
“2 Steps Away” by Patti LaBelle
“Be Be Your Love” by Rachel Yamagata
“Sunshine Song” by Jason Mraz
“Haven’t Met You Yet” by Michael Buble
“Let The Waters Rise” by Mikeschair
“Sunday Morning” by Maroon 5
“Owner of A Lonely Heart” by Yes
“The Words I Would Say” by Sidewalk Prophets
“A Lack of Armor” by Jesse Ruben
“Why” by Secondhand Serenade
“Psalm 118” by Shane&Shane
“Paparazzi” by Lady Gaga (don’t judge me!)
“Suspicious Minds” by Pete Yorn
“Everything” by Michael Buble
“Heaven Is The Face” by Steven Curtis Chapman
“What Faith Can Do” by Kutless
“I and Love and You” by The Avett Brothers
“Yellow” by Vitamin String Quartet
“Supermassive Black Hole” by Muse
“Shadowfeet” by Brooke Fraser
“Oh!” by Eric Hutchinson
“My Sweet Song” by Toby Lightman
December 2009
“12 Days of Christmas (Live)” by Straight No Chaser
“All The Right Moves” by OneRepublic”
“Already Gone” by Kelly Clarkson
“Broken Voices” by Ari Hest
“Christmas (Baby Please Come Home)” by U2
“Complimentary Me” by Elizabeth & The Catapult
“Dancing In The Dark (Live)” by Mat Kearney
“Feel This” by Enation
“Good Vibrations” by Gym Class Heroes
“Here Comes The Sun (Live at Madison Square Garden)” by George Harrison
“Let’s Just Fall In Love Again” by Jason Castro
“No One Higher/Stand” by Fee
“Please Come Home for Christmas” by The Eagles
“River Flows In You” by Yiruma
“Run Rudolph Run” by Chuck Berry
“Safe” by Phil Wickham
“Some Of These Days (Live)” by Andrew Bird
“Song For A Friend” by Jason Mraz
“Superman (Live)” by Five For Fighting
“The Best Thing” by Relient K
“Thinking Of You (Live)” by Katy Perry
“This Is Beautiful” by Tyrone Wells
“Uprising” by Muse
“Yes You Have” by Leeland
“You Are Loved (Don’t Give Up)” by Josh Groban
Monthly Music Lists: June 09-September 09
January 8, 2010
June 2009
“War Sweater” by Wakey!Wakey!
“God of This City” by Bluetree
“Baba O’Riley” by The Who
“Don’t Stop Believing” by Glee Cast
“Battlefield” by Jordin Sparks
“Flightless Bird, American Mouth” by Iron & Wine
“Poker Face” by Lady Gaga (never thought I would like this song, but I do!)
“Breakdown” by Missy Higgins ft. Brett Dennen & Mason Jennings (Live)
“Sunday Morning” by No Doubt
“Use Somebody” by Kings of Leon
“Let Me Sign” by Rob Pattinson
“Beautiful Day” by U2
“Dancing Shoes” by Gavin Degraw
“Skinny Love” by Bon Iver
“Free To Be Me” by Francesca Battistelli
“Eyes on Fire” by Blue Foundation
“Pink Moon” by Nick Drake
“Jai Ho” by A.R. Rahman (NOT the one w/ the Pussycat Dolls)
“Wonderful World” by James Morrison
“Wedding Dress” by Matt Nathanson
“Hey Ya” by Obadiah Parker
July 2009
“Sweet Pea” by Amos Lee
“Hallelujah” by Ari Hest
“There Will Be A Day” by Jeremy Camp
“Be Here Now” by Ray LaMontagne
“Pictures of You” by The Cure
“Jump” by Van Halen
“Brighter Days” by Leeland
“You Are The Best Thing” by Ray LaMontagne
“Give Me One Reason” by Tracy Chapman
“Major Tom” by Shiny Toy Guns
“Come Around” by Rosi Golan
“Hold You In My Arms” by Ray LaMontagne
“Sunday Morning” by Maroon 5
“You Are For Me” by Kari Jobe
“Work” by Jimmy Eat World
“Galileo” by Indigo Girls
“Forever” by Chris Brown
“Best I Ever Had” by State of Shock
“Comatose” by Skillet
“London Bombs” by Eskimo Joe
“O Sunrise” by Matt Hires
“Gravity Rides Everything” by Modest Mouse
“Lay ‘Em Down” by Needtobreathe
“By Your Side” by Tenth Avenue North
August 2009
“Sorrow (acoustic)” by Bad Religion
“Please Come Home For Christmas” by The Eagles
“Manhattan From The Sky” by Kate Voegele
“In My Arms” by Plumb
“Always In Your Mind” by Jennifer O’Connor
“She Is Love” by Parachute
“I’d Rather Be With You” by Joshua Radin
“What Is This Feeling?” by Kristin Chenoweth & Idina Menzel (Wicked soundtrack)
“Smile” by Uncle Kracker
“Honey Let Me Sing You A Song” by Matt Hires
“Surrender” by Cheap Trick
“I Will Rise” by Chris Tomlin
“Love Is Not A Fight” by Warren Barfield
“Her Diamonds” by Rob Thomas
“Say Hey ( I Love You)” by Michael Franti & Spearhead
“I Run To You” by Lady Antebellum
“Fallin For You” by Colbie Caillat
“Love Drunk” by BoysLikeGirls
“Major Tom” by Shiny Toy Guns
“Us” by Regina Spektor
“Closer to Love” by Mat Kearney
“Can’t Take Away” by Mikeschair
“Relator” by Pete Yorn & Scarlett Johansson
“Down” by Jay Sean
“Desert Song” by Hillsong
“Karen’s Café” by Bethany Joy Galeotti
September 2009
“Winter Sky” by Rachel Diggs
“Mercy” by Duffy
“Let Me Love You” by Josh Wilson
“Have A Little Faith In Me” by John Hiatt
“Coal War” by Joshua James
“World Spins Madly On” by The Weepies
“Mario Kart Love Song” by Sam Hart
“With or Without You” by U2
“What Do I Know of Holy” by Addison Road
“Keep It Loose, Keep It Tight” by Amos Lee
“Heartless” by William Fitzsimmons
“Song of Hope (Heaven Came Down)” by Robbie Seay Band
“Hazy” by Rosi Golan ft. William Fitzsimmons
“Heartbeats” by Jose Gonzalez
“Perfect People” by Natalie Grant
“The Galway Girl” by Steve Earle
“Crazy Beautiful” by Chasen
“More Beautiful You” by Jonny Diaz
“It’s Your Life” by Francesca Battistelli
“You’re Beautiful” by Phil Wickham
“Hurricane” by Jimmy Needham
“So Close” by Jon McLaughlin
“Little Wonder” by Rob Thomas
“City” by Sara Bareilles
Darwins.
December 18, 2009
The Darwins are out!!!!
Yes, it’s that magical time of year again when the Darwin Awards are bestowed, honoring the least evolved among us.
Here is the glorious winner:
1. When his 38 caliber revolver failed to fire at his intended victim during a hold-up in Provo , Utah would-be robber Jason Ellison did something that can only inspire wonder. He peered down the barrel and tried the trigger again. This time it worked.
And now, the honorable mentions:
2. The chef at a hotel in Switzerland lost a finger in a meat cutting machine and after a little shopping around, submitted a claim to his insurance company. The company expecting negligence sent out one of its men to have a look for himself. He tried the machine and he also lost a finger. The chef’s claim was approved.
3. A man who shoveled snow for an hour to clear a space for his car during a blizzard in Chicago returned with his vehicle to find a woman had taken the space. Understandably, he shot her.
4. After stopping for drinks at an illegal bar, a Zimbabwean bus driver found that the 20 mental patients he was supposed to be transporting from Harare to Bulawayo had escaped… Not wanting to admit his incompetence, the driver went to a nearby bus stop and offered everyone waiting there a free ride. He then delivered the passengers to the mental hospital, telling the staff that the patients were very excitable and prone to bizarre fantasies.. The deception wasn’t discovered for 3 days.
5.. A teenager was in the hospital recovering from serious head wounds received from an oncoming train. When asked how he received the injuries, the lad told police that he was simply trying to see how close he could get his head to a moving train before he was hit.
6. A man walked into a Louisiana Circle-K, put a $20 bill on the counter, and asked for change. When the clerk opened the cash drawer, the man pulled a gun and asked for all the cash in the register, which the clerk promptly provided. The man took the cash from the clerk and fled, leaving the $20 bill on the counter. The total amount of cash he got from the drawer… $15. [If someone points a gun at you and gives you money, is a crime committed?]
7. Seems an Arkansas guy wanted some beer pretty badly.. He decided that he’d just throw a cinder block through a liquor store window, grab some booze, and run. So he lifted the cinder block and heaved it over his head at the window. The cinder block bounced back and hit the would-be thief on the head, knocking him unconscious. The liquor store window was made of Plexiglas. The whole event was caught on videotape.
8. As a female shopper exited a South Carolina convenience store, a man grabbed her purse and ran. The clerk called 911 immediately, and the woman was able to give them a detailed description of the snatcher. Within minutes, the police apprehended the snatcher. They put him in the car and drove back to the store. The thief was then taken out of the car and told to stand there for a positive ID. To which he replied, “Yes, officer, that’s her. That’s the lady I stole the purse from.”
9.. The Ann Arbor News crime column reported that a man walked into a Burger King in Ypsilanti , Michigan at 5 A.M., flashed a gun, and demanded cash. The clerk turned him down because he said he couldn’t open the cash register without a food order. When the man ordered onion rings, the clerk said they weren’t available for breakfast. The man, frustrated, walked away. [*A 5-STAR STUPIDITY AWARD WINNER]
10. When a man attempted to siphon gasoline from a motor home parked on an Atlanta street, he got much more than he bargained for. Police arrived at the scene to find a very sick man curled up next to a motor home near spilled sewage. A police spokesman said that the man admitted to trying to steal gasoline, but he plugged his siphon hose into the motor home’s sewage tank by mistake. The owner of the vehicle declined to press charges saying that it was the best laugh he’d ever had.
just when I think I’ve got it all under control…
November 14, 2009
Music has gotten me through some hard times in my life.
It just gets to me.
But WHY am I still singing and crying and praying the same things I prayed when I was 15 years old?!
EX: “I wanna be beautiful, to make You stand in awe, Look inside my heart and be amazed.
I want to hear You say who I am is quite enough, I wanna be worthy of love, and beautiful.”
“Gaze into my eyes, let me know you’d fight thousands for my love. Slip your hand in mine, ask me to dance with you tonight. Just ask me, for my love… I WANNA BE PURSUED!”
When I start thinking I have it all figured out and have everything under control, I stop depending on God. It’s a never-ending cycle with me.
Why do I keep shrinking back to the person I used to be, that person that I DON’T want to be… that person that I strived to get away from? Why do I always go back to my “old ways”?
One major thing I have seemed to be struggling with is being unhappy. Why can I not seem to find joy in the Lord? Why do I let my happiness be based on my circumstances? That is not what God asks of me. Yet it is what I do!!! I’m so selfish…
I want passion. I want God to truly reveal what He wants me to do with my life. Right now I feel so uncertain about a lot of things. Should I stay in school longer? Should I try to graduate next May after all? Should I…?… never mind. 
All I want to do is sing, but even with that I haven’t gotten any opportunities to sing in soo long.
GIVE ME CONFIDENCE, LORD! I know You have given me soo many gifts and talents to use for you… I believe that. I just can’t see it right now. Give me those opportunities to learn about and use my passion. Help me discover exactly what it is that You want me to be.
I have felt so immature lately. HELP ME NOT BE STUCK AS A confused FIFTEEN YEAR OLD FOREVER!
On the road to beautiful…
November 14, 2009
i’d been doing so good and then something happens and BAM!
it sets me back.
i don’t like when that happens.
i have my good days and my bad days…
my good weeks and my bad weeks…
this is seeming like a bad week. 
yet God is faithful… even when I can’t feel Him all the time, I know He is there. I TRUST that to be true! I cling to that fact!!!
I crumble at Your kiss and grace
I’m a weakling in the dust
Teach me how to cling to You
With all my life and all my love
Father come to me, hold me up ’cause I can barely stand
My strength is gone and my breath is short, I can’t reach out my hands
But my heart is set on a pilgrimage to heaven’s own bright King
So in faltering or victory I will always sing
And on the road to beautiful
My seasons always change
But my life is spent on loving You
To know You in Your power and pain
You’re my portion in this life
You’re my strength now in my fight
And to You I pledge my heart
In the pain and in the dark I’ll love You
I’ll love You, I’ll love You
I’ll love You…
[the undeveloped story]
November 13, 2009
the flutter below my esophagus
the apple of my eye
my hero in disguise
change doesn’t come easy for anyone and chance is only second best
Don’t cheat yourself out of those rose colored glasses
after all, they were a gift from me to you
bent outta shape
a little scratched
glance through them anyway.
It’s nice to sleep with my feet out of the covers again,
and the shadows….they no longer creep
through my door
steadily
reaching to swallow me.
instead they ease forward…
a promise of sweet dreams and kind eyes
I have no fear.
fear is a direct result of shame.
how could I be ashamed?
the oregon trail is overrated
the gold rush is outdated
yet the destination is all the same
it may not be the world, but the west coast will be jealous
take my hand. talk me through. we all know my sense of direction is…
…….well it just is…….
this is my thought ive thought about alot.
and you are where it begins,
so save your tonight, tomorrow and next week.
pencil me in for a party for two.
Sucked in again…
November 13, 2009
1. I secretly wish my life was a musical.
2. I love hugs. They absolutely make my day.
3. I’ve always wanted to sit on the beach and watch lightning hit sand…then go dig up the sand that the lightning hit. (and yes, I’ve wanted to do this even before seeing Sweet Home Alabama.)
4. I plan on living in Italy sometime before I die.
5. I am NOT a shy person. Many people believe that I am, but they don’t know me at all.
6. I love love love road trips…probably more than anybody should.
7. I enjoy cheesy pickup lines.
8. I’m probably one of the most random and spontaneous people you will ever meet.
9. I like the smell of Target.
10. I have bad luck…really. If you don’t believe me, ask me about my first day at SFA.
11. When I was little, I wanted to be an Olympic gymnast.
12. I am overly obsessed with itunes and music in general.
13. I write poetry, but I’m not confident enough to show it to anybody.
14. I love to ride 4 wheelers…and fish. I love to fish.
15. I’ve always been told that i’m a mystery and an unreadable book. I don’t know how I’m a mystery, but I really want to know what that means.
16. The smell of peanut butter makes me gag, as does the smell of ketchup and cardboard.
17. I never say the word “hi” unless something is wrong.
18. I would LOVE to be on Broadway.
19. I don’t like going to a unfamiliar place alone or walking into a place full of people alone.
20. I enjoy it when people ask me what’s on my mind.
21. I like fireplaces & cold weather & hot chocolate & a good movie.
22. I prefer hanging out with boys over girls…less drama and they tend to be funnier 
23. I have a serious phobia of death and dying after watching a man burn to death when I was 4 years old.
24. I like man smells.
25. I want to work for Extreme Makeover: Home Edition.
Music&Lyrics.
November 13, 2009
There are two kinds of people in the world.
There arelyric people and music people.
The lyrics people tend to be
analytical.
You know, all about the
meaning of the song.
They’re the ones you see with the CD insert out
like five minutes after buying it pouring over the
lyrics, interpreting the crap out of everything.
Then there’s the music people…who could care
less for the lyrics as long as its just got a
good beat
and you can
dance to it.
I don’t know, sometimes it might be easier to be a
music girl and not a lyric girl.
But since I’m not,
Let me just say this: sometimes things find you
When you need them to find you. I believe that.
And for me, it’s usually song
lyrics.
